"It is not the ctitic who counts: not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles or where the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs and comes up short again and again, because there is no effort without error or shortcoming, but who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions, who spends himself for a worthy cause; who, at best, knows, in the end, the triumph of high achievement, and who, at the worst, if he fails, at least he fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who knew neither victory nor defeat."

~Theodore Roosevelt

Monday, March 15, 2010

The Past

~The real person you are is revealed in the moments when you're certain no other person is watching. When no one is watching, you are driven by what you expect of yourself.
~Ralph S. Marston, Jr.


So many different emotions today-gotta love Mondays! We'll go with a positive note though, maybe it'll help my mood. I was thinking today, as I walked home from talking to the financial office, that I never expected to be here, never thought I would have the experiences I have or be in the situations I am in.

I remember writing in my journal the first week of 2009 about all the things that had happened the year before. It was amazing to look back on everything, big and small, that I had been through in only a year. From the people I met to the things I accomplished to how my everyday life had changed.
If I were to write out a list today (haha, assuming I had a few homework-free hours) it would be even more amazing now. Thinking about everything I've done since I came to BYU... I didn't know what it would be like to be six months into college, living away from home, trying to do my calling, going visiting teaching, planning and preparing for a semester in Paris, even just doing my own grocery shopping and not having to report everything I do to someone. Again, this list could go on and on :)
I remember thinking in middle school that I knew were my life was going, I had no choice. The school system basically dictated my life. I had years ahead of me going to middle school and high school and everything that went with that. It's crazy to think that right now, I don't have to be in school. The whole world is open to me now. I am old enough to decide what I want to do, when, and how. It's hard to wrap my mind around sometimes. I still feel bound by school, I guess I'll always have SOMETHING like that-school, work, etc. but now I get to choose what that is :)
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