Frustration

~Character is what emerges from all the little things you were too busy to do yesterday, but did anyway.
~Mignon McLaughlin


I just have a question-how in the world do I talk myself out of everything?!

Maybe I should explain a little. See, I think too much. Ya, a lot of people say that, but it's true. Sometimes I really enjoy just thinking-you find out some interesting things about yourself. But then, sometimes you find out some scary things too :P And then I start talking to myself... I do that way too much. Like, with sarcasm and everything-it can be amusing though.

I've always considered myself pretty good with money. I don't just go buy whatever I want-though I don't always just buy what I need either. But grocery shopping for myself... let's just say I get home and can think of at least two or three things I wish I would have let myself buy. Like, it's Easter time, right? And I LOVE the Cadbury Carmel Eggs. I bought a bunch when I was home last-in fact, all I bought on that shopping trip was chocolate... didn't last long though :) Well, I've been telling myself for days that I could get some if I went shopping for things I needed-paper towels and Clorox wipes and soap. Well, I got what I needed today... and somehow convinced myself I didn't need or shouldn't get chocolate.

Sad day. I'm out of chocolate frosting, Smuckers fudge, candy bars, and Cadbury Eggs. Dang! Haha, and somehow I paid twice as much as I normally do at the store-and I didn't go full-out grocery shopping or anything. I swear it used to cost less to feed myself for three weeks than it does when I go to the store every week or two now. (though, paper towels and other necessities are overpriced in my opinion)

And then there's just the simple everyday act of talking myself out of homework. Haha, that one's not as hard to figure out. I just can't figure how I can manage to waste four or six or eight hours and get one assignment done. Just doesn't make sense. Like now, I have a "Par Ecrit," an"a l'ecoute," a whole book to read and critique and give examples for-chapter by chapter, an "Annotated Bibliography," an eight page paper on The Left Hand of Darkness, a capture on an article for that eight page paper, and a French test I really need to get better than a D on this week. How in the world have I managed not to do any of it? Well, I've done at least 15 things on my to-do-list this weekend, but it hasn't even made a dent.

Alright, that was kind of just a rant. But I have to say, I really do frustrate myself sometimes...