~2010~

~We spend January 1 walking through our lives, room by room, drawing up a list of work to be done, cracks to be patched. Maybe this year, to balance the list, we ought to walk through the rooms of our lives... not looking for flaws, but for potential.

~Ellen Goodman

Alright, gonna hear a lot about school. Haha, so I've been to all my classes now. Today was less intimidating than yesterday-though French just scares me to death in general. And I can't get my English Language site to work. Or my French one. And I'm worried about my apartment stuff online...

But I'm organizing everything and making a calender and starting homework and feeling better about getting through the semester. Getting through. How sad is that.

So, I was thinking a few weeks ago about all the things that happened to me in 2010. And I wanted to post about it-even if it is a few days after the new year :)

It's amazing to me how much can happen and change in a year. I remember the first week of 2010-moving back to Provo, starting classes. The first FHE that week and going on an interesting date with my FHE brother... which set things up for an interesting semester.

And starting classes again-and actually knowing people on this big campus. Going a month without going home (which I know shouldn't be a big deal, but I'll just say it's a good thing I go to school close to home and hope to always live close to Salt Lake). The first year "anniversary" of our carbon monoxide poisoning. Bronwen's first birthday...

Then there was the spring and finals week and dying to get out of my dorm. I remember moving out-carrying it all to my car alone in the rain. And looking around the room I'd lived in for eight months and only feeling a twinge of sadness for what could have been... and being so excited to move home.

The trip to Arizona to visit family and finally feeling free. Haha, and then there were the six to eight weeks of nothing. It was wonderful and yet I don't know how I wasted so much time. I stayed up until three or four. Slept until noon. Watched TV in my pajamas. Snacked all day. Put off getting a job or getting ready for Paris.

Accepting the offer to be set up-something I'd never thought I'd do. And having it go well. I think it was then that I was pulled out of my fog of two months. Going on my first second date and everything after that.

Having my first job interview and getting my first full-time job. Working 6:30 to 3 five days a week. Working overtime one Saturday a month. Working for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Sewing. Eight hours a day. Still can't believe I did that for five months. Or that I got as fast as I did.

The week at Snowbird with my family and trying to make the most of it because we only go every other year... and who knows where I'll be in two years. Being exhausted from work everyday and staying out until midnight or one anyway :)

Deciding not to go to Paris. Can't believe I had the chance to go to Paris and turned it down. Yet, feeling all the pressure come off with that decision. Feeling hope as the leaves started to change colors and the nights got chilly.

Putting in my two weeks at work and feeling sad even when I needed to get out of there. Working my last day and going Christmas shopping and the family party and vacation and Christmas! Loving the cold and the snow and the season. And ending the year in Jackson Hole :)

And I know there are a million things I didn't mention. And I can't even measure how much I've changed in the last year. Sometimes I wish I could. Others, I think maybe it's best that I can't.

But I'm excited for what 2011 will bring :)