Endings

~Sometimes your greatest asset is simply your ability to stick with it longer than anyone else.
~Brian Tracy

I would love a show of hands of who has never flipped to the last page of a book before they got there. Yes, I know that's not very realistic, but it would be interesting. Against my better judgment, I've done it several times. Alright, maybe more than several-but that was a while ago.

Sometimes I just wanted to make sure my favorite character didn't die. Sometimes I had to make sure the one couple ended up together. Usually, it worked out like I had hoped. And knowing how it would end was comforting. Yet, I would still read through the rest of the book-I had to know how they got to the end.

And sometimes, sometimes I wish I could flip to the last page of my book-see who "survives," maybe what friendships lasted, and who ended up together. I've thought that would give me a comfort, just knowing. But I don't think it would. Sometimes, reading the last page of a book ruined the book-not always though, and those times it just made it a little less exciting, a little less nerve-racking, a little less captivating.

Yes, I can say tomorrow I'll go to class, I'll read in the library until someone annoys me or I start to fall asleep, and I'll avoid doing homework. But I don't know what we'll do in class or who I'll talk to. I don't know what will happen to annoy me or how long before I almost fall asleep-maybe I will fall asleep in the library-wouldn't that be fun. And I don't know what I will find to keep me away from my homework. And I don't really want to know, until it happens.

It's kind of exciting when you don't know. The anticipation of something is usually better than the something itself. So I don't want to know where I'll be in a year, don't want a glimpse of myself in five years. It would take away from what I'm doing now. Haha, and while this doesn't seem all that exciting now, I guess it kind of is :)