List Making Addict

~I've always thought that a big laugh is a really loud noise from the soul saying, "Ain't that the truth."

~Quincy Jones

Record for blog viewers in one day today-most in the last month of statistics that I can see!

So, for FHE tonight we played a few games. I've played them before and have always struggled. I've decided to work on lists of things to make them easier next time I play. Because I'm sure there'll be a next time.

"I have never" or "Never have I ever"-great game! I love it. Fun times playing that in high school with my friends and my honors English class. It's pretty easy-you put up ten fingers. As you go around the circle each person says something they've never done. The other players put down a finger if they have done it. Last person "wins"-pretty much, they've done the least.

I always have my generic "never tried a hamburger" and what not. But I have been on an airplane. And a lot of people haven't been out of the country or broken any bones. And I know there are a ton of things I haven't done but I am not an on-the-spot thinker. But I am a list-maker! So I plan on making a list to refer to if I ever play again.

"Two truths and a lie"-pretty sure everyone's played this. It is a very common get-to-know-you game. Simple: you tell two truths and one lie and everyone guesses which one is the lie. Now, if you know me you know I'm a terrible liar. Haha, besides the not being able to easily come up with good ideas :) So I plan on making a list for this as well!

So basically, I love lists. I make them for even the simplest and least important things in life. The end.

Earplugs are Amazing

~I have often lamented that we cannot close our ears with as much ease as we can our eyes.

~Richard Steele

In the spirit of catching up, I am blogging one more time today.

First, earplugs are amazing. The end.

Second, I just organized a whole bunch of my writings from high school. Well, all from high school. I still have to print off everything from college. All my poetry and short stories and braided essays... it's exciting! It's so cool to see them all piled together in a binder. I've read through a lot of them as I printed them off a few weeks ago. Some are a lot better than I would have expected. Haha, and then some are just really not so great.

I was thinking I'd post one of my poems or something on here but I think I've put most of the best ones on here before-or they're printed in the Literary Magazine. And I am feeling a little too lazy to go through and find a good one I haven't shared and then try to find the file on my computer-seriously, I lose those ones!

So maybe sometime this week... we'll see.

I'm not looking forward to this week. I have SO much to do and two tests and three papers and memorization and lots of reading and studying and real life things to do as well... But I'm feeling pretty motivated to get things going tomorrow. Mondays can turn out to be pretty good days depending on how productive I am. If I manage to get a good chunk of the week's work done-then I feel pretty good about myself.

Hm, ever get sick of your own vocabulary? I've noticed lately that I say "pretty good" a lot. That's always my response. So it doesn't sound quite as negative as I may feel but it also covers me in case things get worse cuz it wasn't just "good." Interesting...

A Long Letter

About three weeks behind on my journal. Yep. And now I'm trying to catch up. I have SO much to say about everything! I have been writing a paragraph or so every day but that's so not enough. I like details! And when I get behind, it's so much harder to write cuz I don't even know where to start!

I have written 64 pages since January 3rd. Typed pages. 11 point font. It's exciting to me how much I've written, how much of the last two and a half months I have recorded. And I love going back and reading parts. Most of it I still really remember. But it's the details and the way I felt about it then that makes it interesting.

_______________________

"I write constantly, but only in my journals. I have three of them: one for travel, one for home, and one I write in before bed. But the last thing I want is other people reading it..... What's really fun is reading your journal, like a year later..."

-Cameron Diaz

"After the writer's death, reading his journal is like receiving a long letter."

-Jean Cocteau

"I never travel without my diary. One should always have something sensational to read in the train."

-Oscar Wilde

"I write journals and would recommend journal writing to anyone who wishes to pursue a writing career. You learn a lot. You also remember a lot... and memory is important."

-Judy Collins

Pictures!

~The informality of family life is a blessed condition that allows us to become our best while looking our worst.

~Marge Kennedy

Well, good weekend at home :) Gonna be a long, busy, stressful week though... I uploaded the photos off my camera this afternoon! Teague's blessing and yesterday :) They are in no particular order cuz I couldn't make it work on blogger. Sad day. But that's alright!

Lilly trying to calm Teague down-such a cute big sister :)

Teague's cute blessing outfit!

So adorable!!!

My parents :)

Brae and Teague-so sad but so cute!

New Invention?

~The worst thing in the world is to try to sleep and not to.

~F. Scott Fitzgerald

It's almost the weekend! I can't wait! I was on top of my homework this week... but I went through my class schedules for next week today and I have so much work! Somehow, I'll manage to do it though! I will.

So today I was going to post pictures from last weekend on here... but then I didn't feel like uploading them all to my computer and dealing with posting them and all that. I know, maybe it sounds a little lazy, but, ya, no excuse. I'll do it another day :) Less than 5 weeks of classes left this semester! And midterms will be over at the end of next week!

I do have to say though, that I'm a little jealous of everyone having spring break right about now. Curse you! Haha, no, it just really bothers me that I don't even get a Friday off or anything. And BYU started a week before everyone-we need a break too! It just irks me a little when I read about other people's awesome breaks on Facebook.

So, question. Headphones aren't a new thing, are they? Like, most people know what they are? Cuz I thought it was common knowledge. But I've started to second guess myself here at college. Today I was trying to study in the hallway between classes and this guy had his laptop open playing music... not for long, but it was weird to me! Or how I have to do my reading homework around when people are home... Not that I have anything against them or the people who are loud everywhere on campus (which is why I no longer study in the library) but it makes it hard to focus sometimes.

It's better than last year though. There was nowhere I could go anytime to get away from it all-library was loud, hallways were loud, outside was cold, the lobby had couples, my kitchen had couples, my roommate blasted music or chatted with her boyfriend on webcam... wow, I did not mean to complain like this today. I'm getting a headache just thinking about it!

On a happier note, today was amazing outside! It was so beautiful! And it smelt like summer on campus! I'm pretty excited! And I swear I smelled BBQ chicken and campfire walking home...

Plagued By Doubts

~While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die.

~Leonardo Da Vinci

Just trying to dig my way into a deeper hole by writing this paper for British Lit. So, from what I understand, I have to pick a text we've read. Then I have to read critical papers on that text. I have to find one that I don't agree with or seems weak. And, I have to argue with it. Two-page paper...

But the whole time I'm reading or trying to plan my paper or thinking up arguments I'm just imagining the comments in the margins of my paper. I can see them. In her messy handwriting. About how that's not really what he was trying to say or how I didn't take the argument head on or how she just doesn't understand what that sentence meant...

GAH!!! I just want to scream. I've not yet in my college career seriously considered not writing a paper. Especially not a two-page one. Two pages=10% of my grade. Are you kidding me? I was working this out in my head. Not doing this paper would take me down to an F. I have little hope of getting up very far at this point. I could fail the class. Take it over. Lose my scholarship. Take out loans. Be in debt for the next ten years...

I know I'm being dramatic, but one paper should not have such an effect on my life!

I'm plagued by doubts about my ability to write for this class. The prompts are not normal. I do not even understand what she is looking for! How the heck am I supposed to please her? Huh? And it is about pleasing her. Granted the university is supposed to teach me how to learn and be successful and write and whatnot. Well, turns out I'm learning to be successful by jumping through hoops and people-pleasing.

But I've known that's how things worked for a while... high school... middle school... I just try not to think about it or it really makes things depressing.

Procrastination

~Anyone can do any amount of work, provided it isn't the work he is supposed to be doing at that moment.

~Robert Benchley

My homework list is fairly short this week, yet there is so much reading! I think it's a little sad that I know it takes approximately six minutes to read one page in my Norton Anthology. This means that when I look at my homework list and have to read thirty pages for one assignment I know it will take about three hours. And that, is depressing.

And I have about three more long reading assignments this week.

I need to start that British paper. It is, in fact, only a two page paper. But the instructions are just not clear! I have no clue what she wants. And any student understands that with less than 48 hours left before we have to turn it in, it's not the best message to send your teacher an email asking what the heck you're supposed to be doing.

So, I've started working on Friday's homework, and even some of Mondays. I have this theory. Well, it's not really a theory, but it sounds more sophisticated that way. I've said it on here before. Some days there's one assignment I really don't want to do. And that is the next thing I really need to work on. So, I avoid it. And get nothing done at all.

I've discovered that it's better to just keep busy. I may just do anything except that assignment but at least I'm getting something done. And I'm hardly one to not do my work on time. So then I end up getting it done-even if not my best work-and ending up ahead. I still feel productive while I'm procrastinating!

Now that I'm caught up blogging I think I'll go read some of Friday's or Monday's homework or work on memorizing the first 18 lines of "The Canterbury Tales" or pick a lyric poem to memorize or write in my journal or start my Elang homework... and maybe I'll get around to that very confusing, sure to be a failure paper.